Cornify LAPOOR - (via picturespictures) uploaded some photos from...
June 27, 2009
(via picturespictures) uploaded some photos from this week. i am in a horrible state of trying to grasp the things that feel like water spewing out of in between my fingers. i want to explain to people that i’m trying so hard. i’m stressed. all of the time. i only realized this when my dentist talked about my teeth, how i grind them away every night and when i’m older i will not have any. now it is okay because i have anight guard, but realizing my stress hasn’t helped yet to prevent it. i don’t know how.  i feel like a complete letdown today and i also feel like i can have all the good stuff, but only under certain conditions that make me not want them anymore. i’m in a pile of bad stuff, and i’m blaming myself… which is not so good. today was a bit okay though because i am very inspired and cleaned out my wardrobe and made a shirt from childhood flames (the fashion blog) and took photos, but all that stuff was weighted down with horrible stuff. i just wish everyone understood or wanted to support me. i have a lot to do and i wanted to watch a movie with my family, but i tried to get stuff done and now it is getting late and they won’t want to watch it and they’re all asleep almost. i just feel horrible… and i keep worrying that tomorrow’s filming won’t go right and to add to it i am scared of some people that might be there, but screw them all, i want to act in an oblivious way that will make me feel a bit better. UGH UG UGHUGHUGHGUHGUHGUGHU GHDF;GHG JAGJ’G’JGIEROP ’ FRAKKKKKKKKKK i’m so angry/lost/sad fhdsajfas;kfs (plus no one likes the photos that i took today/kind of like but hey what’s new frak i ugh i don’t care what you think i just am so annoyed.) I COULD GO ON AND ON TO TRY AND FIND SOME SORT OF SOLUTION BUT I CAN’T SO GOODBYE.

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uploaded some photos from this week. i am in a horrible state of trying to grasp the things that feel like water spewing out of in between my fingers. i want to explain to people that i’m trying so hard. i’m stressed. all of the time. i only realized this when my dentist talked about my teeth, how i grind them away every night and when i’m older i will not have any. now it is okay because i have anight guard, but realizing my stress hasn’t helped yet to prevent it. i don’t know how.  i feel like a complete letdown today and i also feel like i can have all the good stuff, but only under certain conditions that make me not want them anymore. i’m in a pile of bad stuff, and i’m blaming myself… which is not so good. today was a bit okay though because i am very inspired and cleaned out my wardrobe and made a shirt from childhood flames (the fashion blog) and took photos, but all that stuff was weighted down with horrible stuff. i just wish everyone understood or wanted to support me. i have a lot to do and i wanted to watch a movie with my family, but i tried to get stuff done and now it is getting late and they won’t want to watch it and they’re all asleep almost. i just feel horrible… and i keep worrying that tomorrow’s filming won’t go right and to add to it i am scared of some people that might be there, but screw them all, i want to act in an oblivious way that will make me feel a bit better. UGH UG UGHUGHUGHGUHGUHGUGHU GHDF;GHG JAGJ’G’JGIEROP ’ FRAKKKKKKKKKK i’m so angry/lost/sad fhdsajfas;kfs (plus no one likes the photos that i took today/kind of like but hey what’s new frak i ugh i don’t care what you think i just am so annoyed.) I COULD GO ON AND ON TO TRY AND FIND SOME SORT OF SOLUTION BUT I CAN’T SO GOODBYE.