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PS YOU JUST ACTUALLY GAVE ME REAL LIVE COURAGE IN MY PHOTOS FOR ONCE

thank you for being such a good friend.

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was just thinking about stuff relating to this. i think maybe that i always used to think that a good friendship was where there were no times where we felt bad or had conflicts, but now i’m realizing that there is mostly no way to avoid this. sometimes i feel like shit, and that is just the way it is, and i will probably feel that way around a friend, but that doesn’t mean that our friendship is bad. if my friends can understand it and put up with me, then they are amazing friends. i feel so lucky to have some friends that are like this. i feel guilty whenever i am feeling bad around them and complain about it or get frustrated around them, but isn’t it fucking crazy that they are still my friends and just want to help? it is so lucky that i want to cry. thanks so much you guys, i love you.

I feel really weird at the moment

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agree so so so so so so so much i feel completely weird, i would try to explain it in words, but i’d go on for hours and then feel shitty

i wish

people on flickr made more constructive comments sometimes. it is so rare that i see one and it would make this whole seeing my photos through someone else’s eyes thing so much easier. and for applying to this contest/making a portfolio… ? not things like… “the crop is too small” or “too dark on the face”, but questions that i have are “what ideas/feelings do you get from this photo?” and… “what sort of context or point of view to you get from this?” for the second question answers would be stuff like “in my opinion this photo seems like two teenagers posing for a picture and not in a lifestyle photo kind of way, but in a this is a photograph for an assignment type of way…” or… “this looks like you spotted a group of kids on a new york street playing games by the curb and it seems geniuine and intrigues me” etc./why you like it…

i know this is a lot to ask, but it is what i wish. i don’t make comments at all and i really should. i think i will go through some of my friend’s photostreams and give my opinion that might help them in seeing things from a different perspective… i feel like i owe it to them, plus i am in love with their photos and if something strikes me, i should let them know it because it’ll most likely affect someone else in the same way and mayeb they wouldn’t know otherwise….

fhsiodfhiposafhsoijug;g yeah lots of words, but this will be nice. i want to get more serious about my photos. travel beyond the flickr audience and all. because when i step back and look at things, i don’t notice how many are so unreal and obviously posed (i don’t exactly know how to explain it, but it is like when a photograph has no other purpose than to be a photograph to look at for a second and favorite)… i dunno, but that scares me a bit… jhfk;jakfksa;fj;s okay