Cornify LAPOOR
October 16, 2009

to do:

  • ask dad about:
    • backing up computer
    • installing new operating system
    • new itunes
    • IPOD CAN WORK!??!?!
    • SUCKS!!!!
  • shoot journals for website
  • design website journal entries (IF I WAS ABLE I WOULD BE DOING THIS UGHHHH)
  • pick stuff for portfolio
  • print out photo calendar/schedule shoots
  • update normal calendar
  • read over/finish self evaluation
  • write roughs for college essays
  • finish miguel painting/gemma sbj
  • ect ctcttctett ctct

JUDGMENT PASSED:

THAT WAS REALLY RUDE- SCREW YOU!!!

October 15, 2009
finally looking at sabino’s blog- finding a bunch of cool pictures

finally looking at sabino’s blog- finding a bunch of cool pictures

can you believe this? sometimes i can’t. it’s so the future- just houses and buildings going on forever. i know it shouldn’t, but this picture kind of scares me.

can you believe this? sometimes i can’t. it’s so the future- just houses and buildings going on forever. i know it shouldn’t, but this picture kind of scares me.

acc:

lapoor:

i think i’m sick in my heart

how does that feel, is there a reason?

it’s like i was born without hands or something… so i’m alive, but what can i do with all these fucking conditions? like ghosts, what’s the point you guys, just let go, you silly ghosts- you can’t do anything and no one can see you. this heartbreak combined with the normal type of heartbreak is just a very bad feeling. and i’m just stressed and feel like my heart has closed off to any type of love for people around me… i dunno, don’t trust my words. i feel like i need to meet people who will understand me, but what are the chances? and i’m feeling to lazy/not able to explain myself to people who don’t. ghdsfjkhdfsj;hdf i dunno…

i think i’m sick in my heart

oh fuck...

” It hurts, but it is better to accept the reality of life rather than living in a make believe world, thinking that time is going to turn back. It will only make it more difficult for you to accept this fact, as time goes on.”

stuff i have to do, but feel exhausted-

  • finish nfaa paintings
  • finish sbj peices
  • write college essays
  • my website
  • a body of work for photography that relates and doesn’t suck
  • nfaa photos
  • : (
what i want to do: sit and play an instrument very well- too bad i can’t do this

: (

i am horrible at writing. no one gets me when i write. i wish i could express myself with words because they are used very often in my life for very important things. i really hope i can get into college even with my crap college essays, but more importantly i really hope people can at some point get me by the words i use.