LAPOOR

WORD SPLURGE:

to do:

read more comics/graphic novels about interesting things. can anyone recommend any?

olivia bee

you should answer some formsprings if you are able. okay gonna watch my movie now! can’t wait ‘till tomorrow and the next for minutes er watever.

RA RA RA

i want to start thinking about all these great photogaph ideas i have involving the way i want women to think about themsleves and other women. it involves making wonderful fashion compositions, as well as someone dressing however the hell they want if there were no feminine trainings or restrictions and acting however the hell they want if there were no feminine trainings or restrictions. that’s my idea of some beeaaauuutiful photographs. i can see the in my mind and i know they will inspire. : )

(my opinions) on discussions:

discussions are very important. they spin the world around. lately i’ve been telling myself that i’m all about communication. that doesn’t mean i do it all the time (i try, but hey, it’s hard sometimes), but it does mean that i think it’s necessary for so many things in society. i guess those things would include relationships, progression, businesses, anything where people have to understand and work with each other. i love discussions, but lately i’ve been noticing that there are so many factors that prevent a discussion from happening smoothly. here are some things i think everyone should know and keep in mind when having a discussion:

• what are we talking about? let’s try to figure this out. if the discussion is more of a free flowing conversation then that’s great, but if we’re trying to meet some understanding or figure something out, it’s nice to have a question or topic that everyone is discussing.
• i know all discussions can’t be about raising hands and taking turns (although it is my favorite type of discussion. usually when i’m having discussions though, people have paper and pen to write down their thoughts so they don’t forget what they’re saying when it comes to be their turn, so i can see how it might be nice to just blurt out whatever thought i’m having in any other circumstance), but it is still nice to be polite and try to take turns somewhat even though it is hard to not cut people off.
• amnesty. (is good) i try to give the person i’m speaking with some room to grow and some understanding. something might sound really wrong to me and i might not agree with everything they say, but i try to hear them out and see where they are coming from. i’m not going to let it affect the way i’m thinking unless it truly does, and i’m not going to let them off without remarking to them if they’ve hurt me that they’ve hurt me, but at least i’ll listen and try to understand because i know understanding can only benefit me.
• “i” statements. (are good) people make fun of this all the time, but making fun of things just seems to be a pattern in my life where the people making fun of things don’t want they way things are going for them to change. i think it’s hard for people to recall things from their own experience because i see it happen every day. i also know from first hand experience that people whose experiences are painful don’t like to say “this happened to me”. “i” statements are basically saying “i” or “me” instead of “you”. this is so hard for me to explain, and even harder for me to explain why it’s so important. it may seem like i’m just being picky, but i’ve realized how much “you” statements have projected other’s opinions onto me and forced me to think in a different way which sucks. for years i’ve been sooo confused about how to live just because of “you” statments. all of the expressions that have lasted through decades and are still passed down to me shouldn’t hold a place in my values because 1. they’re probably outdated and 2. they’re not about me or my life. they just confuse me. “respect your elders” “live your life to the fullest” (what does that even mean?) “you can’t always get what you want” aghhh… again i can’t think of good examples, but i can never get past it when people say “you”, but they really mean “me” (because they are talking about things they see to be true or things that happened to them or ideals from their point of view) and are kind of putting themselves out of their own thoughts and instead projected them onto everyone else. that’s not what being an individual is about. i think people fall into using “you” statements because they don’t want to seem self centered, but it’s all just a trick with words. be as honest as possible, please. i don’t judge you if you’re talkng about yourself or your own experiences, in fact, i value and appreciate the moments when you do.
• taking things personally. (not good when not intended) i think that people can sometimes take things too personally for many different reasons, but i won’t get into that. the fact is, i love to talk with people and hear their opinions and share my own. i may get riled up or excited, but don’t take that as agression or as an attack. (heaven forbid you see it as a personal attack. just the fact that i’m discussing with you means i value your opinions as an individual and want to hear them) uh… i guess that’s all i gotta say. just… don’t take it personal. i know it’s hard, but i don’t mean to fight or get angry. i think people’s assumptions of this is part of the reason why discussion and communication is sometimes taboo. this sucks. how can we ever learn or see from other views if we don’t discuss? (i also was meaning to write a tumblr post about how emotions are often taboo in my life, maybe i’ll do that later… anyways i hate it.) (oh, p.s.- i feel like whenever i have discussions in the organization i’m in, since we already have all these ground rules, i’ve let my guard down about this whole point, so now when i talk to people i forget that my tone and way of speaking might make them think of an “attack” or they will take what i’m saying personally, but that’s just because when i normall discuss, i know the people around me won’t assume these things and i’m used to that.)
• discussions are often grueling and can get tedious or tiring. if feel like the chances of this are less if people stop repeating what someone else has just said or what they said earlier in different words. i know people usually want to get their own voice in or stress a point, and that’s a good idea if you have a point to add or if someone didn’t get it the first time, but otherwise, the discussion is getting nowhere. i don’t see the point in repeating anything for no reason. if you agree with someone say “yeah” or “ditto”, foreal. this is great because then you can relate to someone and they’ll probably feel good that someone else is with them and that their point is being heard.
• i sometimes need a while to process what you are saying. because of many reasons. basically you just have to know this. especially when people are cutting each other off or using “you” statements.
• i forget… i had another
• i don’t know if this is it. i might add more later. i just want to start watching my movie…

but yeah, i’m glad i wrote this because i love discussions and i want everyone else to love them like i do. i want everyone to love discussions for the sake of humanity, animals, the world… etc. basically for the sake of everything? i was wondering if government and businesses and organizations and teams and companies ever have unsuccesful discussions (oh, i sure know “normal” people have too many unsuccessful discussions in their everyday lives, based on some of the points i’ve listed.) and if they know about the points i know about and if they try to make it better ect. these are just my ideas on discussions from my own experiences and i was wishing that everybody knew them, so i wrote them down here… i went over to my friends house today and we were all discussing and i love that. i just felt like there were so many awkward parts to our discussion that i could have told them my thoughts about if i had had the time. i feel like people i talk to all the time just at school or wherever could benefit from knowing this info when they talk to me. i dunno… i just felt like it was a good idea. i guess this is a kind of disclaimer for anyone who may cross my path. (haha, wow.) (yeah, people often tell me i’m stressful to be around, but this specifically is all stuff i value in discussions, take it or leave it. i am actually a very understanding/open minded person, and when i’m not i try to be. can’t forget that i’m a human with emotions though… okay cool)

IF THERE'S A GOD HE IS LAUGHING AT US

I WANT TO LIVE IN EFFINGTON I WANT TO DIE THERE TOO

do it, because surveys are fun for everybody.so many

laurencephilomene:

funeral:

name: Lauren
age: 17
where do you live: basically washington dc
what do you do: i try to take pictures as much as possible, but lately i’ve been applying to colleges
favourite colour: my whole life it’s been blue, but i’ve been really into pink and it might be a tie
favourite cake: french silk *pie*
favourite song at the moment: in my mind i am singing effington, but i really like shoplifters of the world unite by the smiths and  some by the mountain goats
a woman that inspires you: so many, but i’ll say elle because she is not only an awesome woman, but an awesome KID

moleskines are so expensive. i’m one to buy the cheapest of whatever it is i want, but moleskines are so worth it. if you love to journal and are currently unsatisfied, save up for one of the thick ones. i used to use a lined one, just finished a gridded one, am using a blankk one for photography ideas, and just bought another lined one for my current journal. i’m always excited about the new format journal i get. whether it’s lined or clear it seems to inspire new things. my uncle got me my first one and i am using them since. i’m a real picky journal person, but moleskines fulfill all of my requirements. actually the lined pages are kind of thin for my taste, but i’ll get used to it. okay wow i wrote more about thi journal than i intended to. time to go do a speeedy room cleanup!

TO DO:

• new journal
• recommendations
• print out risd paper
• check some stuff
• online banking (is shit)
• tech powerpoints (can’t really do that)
• study for apes
• clean room
• watch tv shows
• decorate journal